rodeo65
DIS Veteran
- Joined
- Feb 1, 2009
Following along with you, Rodeo. Our family is dealing with the same right now, stage 4 pancreatic adenocarcinoma. Like an earlier poster, the Whipple was performed successfully by a world-renowned surgeon and now in treatment by a cutting edge oncologist (who we selected based on his numerous clinical trials). Unfortunately, spots were found on the liver during a recent PET scan, and the team has told us their clinical trials aren’t an option now because of the current urgency to get chemo. So we have just started the “kitchen sink” approach of 12 cycles of Folfirinox... if this part is survivable, we would consider additional chemo regimens in the future but understand that it’s just buying time unless there’s an imminent immunotherapy breakthrough.
I wish you, DH, and your family all the time in the world. We are all crying, hoping, and loving right along with you.
I am sorry you are also dealing with this horrendous disease, but glad you have been able to find some treatment that might buy you some time. I will pray for you also.
Sadly, today wasn't as good. DH was having hallucinations with the morphine - bugs on the wall he said, so he refused a couple of doses. Of course that put his pain level back at about a 9. So, around 11 this morning, he agreed to try hydramorphone again. They've put butterfly inserts on each arm, one for I think it's haldol?? for his hiccups that are frequent and persistent and one on the other side for dilaudid. Since he has an anti-anxiety on board long acting overnight and as needed through the day, he felt he could withstand the pain med. So, today he basically slept. Which also means barely ate or drank.
I had to take DD to the doctor this afternoon. Our family practitioner is also overseeing his care through the hospice. He asked how the medication switch had gone and we got discussing everything. When I said we had originally hoped he might gain enough strength in hospice to come home and start treatment, he shook his head. Said the progression was far too fast and aggressive to allow that. Which has become obvious. It was four weeks yesterday. 29 days currently, since he walked into the ER thinking he might have to have an appendectomy. If only...
I then said he only had three months in hospice care, and again he started shaking his head. Said that with the speed it has taken over he thought maybe a couple of weeks. He is refusing visitors. He only wants me and sometimes the kids. It makes me so sad because when I told my dad that tonight he started crying and said they'd never see him again.
I noticed a lot of swelling in his feet yesterday, so we propped them on pillows. Today that seemed to be down a little. His belly is also very swollen. I mentioned that to the doctor and he said when the organs start shutting down, that happens in the body cavity. Swelling and fluid build up. On the other hand, his arms and legs have become so skinny. We took a few pictures with him last night but when I look at them he isn't really there. Maybe it's the pain meds, but his eyes were vacant.
My dad said we should call the funeral home to start some arrangements so I don't have to handle it all when he passes. He asked me what music he'd want. That did me in for the night.