OOC: Merry Christmas!
Nova: She didn't answer the door.
Agent Hill: I just dont know what to say to her anymore. I cant treat her like an agent, because she wont respond to authority. I cant treat her like a daughter, or shell accuse me of babying her. I cant talk to her about anything without her having an attitude, or without her walking away from me because Ive said the wrong thing. I can handle SHIELD agents, but I cant handle my own daughter, I cant believe how pathetic that sounds. I guess thats just my curse. I guess my daughter is the one person I just cant handle. I should have never had a kid. I should have just stuck to my job. She doesnt listen to anything I say. She doesnt act like the agent she wanted to be. That might partially be my fault for being too soft on her. But what choice do I have? Do I want to end up pushing her away from me because of constant drilling? Or do I want to give her a chance to have a somewhat normal parent-child relationship? Who am I kidding, Im in SHIELD. I cant be a fit parent with all this work I have to do. I cant even remember the last time we spent her birthday together. I cant remember the last time we had a civil conversation. I thought we cleared things up in Wakanda, but I guess that was just a moment of weakness for her. Maybe it was something I said, or maybe it was that journal I gave her. No matter how hard I try, she just makes it a problem. I cant even give her a compliment without her thinking I have ulterior motives. Maybe its because Im not being hard enough. But I dont want to be too hard on her, after all, shes only seventeen. No one can understand the struggle it takes to raise a girl as stubborn as she is. Shes a nightmare. Shes completely perfect. Nova would be an ideal agent if it wasnt for her reluctance to respond to authority. Nova doesnt realize it now, but we are so much alike. I just want her to be happy. When she was a toddler, she was the sweetest little thing. When she got older eventually, I thought that maybe Id have a good relationship with her. No. Not even close. Brilliant. I cant have a conversation with her without it going south. I cant offer her anything to pass down. I cant even tell her that I lover her. She doesnt listen, and shes awful at listening to others. She blames me, for reasons that are to blame because I like work. Shes really bitter, which could make for interesting agent work! But I cant control her enough, not in the extreme overbearing way, but in the way that shes at least well enough to have a civil conversation with me every once in a while!