I'm reading through messages, posts, and texts this morning and even through all of my tears, I am feeling all of the support, care, and love, even from people I've never met in person. So many people Don worked with at Friends Aware are posting messages on his facebook and mine that I've met or never met, and how he touched every single one of them.
The house is too empty and quiet. Our one little cat, Half Pint, who was Don's 'lap cat' has been sitting in front of me not moving and last night she climbed into my lap, something she never does. At the moment, she's sitting on the desk, right in front of me, just laying there. Somehow, she knows.
Summer has gone radio silent on me since last night. I was worried about her and the kids. She won't answer my phone calls or texts. She didn't deal with things well yesterday and everyone has mentioned her being a drama queen. I know she had to handle things in her own way, but she took time away from me with him that I can never get back. I wasn't going to cause a scene in front of Don, so I had to leave the room. I was in the hallway being comforted by nurses and strangers, and it hurts. I feel resentment towards her right now, and I don't want these feelings. I'm mad at the world right now. The only one I'm not mad at is God. He put Don on this earth for a reason, and he took him to Heaven for another reason. That's the only peace I have right now.
His brother and sister in law in FL called me and talked for 40 minutes last night. They aren't able to come up for the service as they are both teachers, but they are planting a tree in their yard in Don's memory.
I thank each and every one of you.
As an off note, do you know how to remove someone who is following you on the DIS for no apparent reason all of a sudden. My mind isn't working right and I can't figure out how to. I don't know them, they aren't posting on this thread or any other thread I ever read, but it says they are now following me.