mickeyboat
<font color=660099>Nothing like the cream and choc
- Joined
- Oct 14, 2003
I was totally scared when I first came off the pill. I didn't know if we were making the right decision, if we could afford it... heck, I wasn't even sure if I even truly WANTED a baby because I was so freaked out by the whole idea!
Now that we've been trying for almost a year, though, I'm not really scared anymore. I guess because being able to get pregnant isn't as easy as I thought it would be, it's hard for me to imagine actually being pregnant and having one!
I was never really scared because my journey started before I was really even trying. I went off the pill in November (1994) and still had not gotten a period in August (1995), so I went to my doctor. She ran some tests and didn't find anything conclusive. She also mentioned I would probably have a tough time getting PG.
I had always figured that as soon as I wanted to get PG, I would be able to. Heck, we have been told all these years that we can control our fertility. So I freaked out and decided that was not going to happen to me, and we started on our journey. No fear, just determination.
I had a couple of losses, lots of treatment with some breaks in between, lots of pain, doubt and sadness, and found out I was PG with Hannah in January, 1999 - she was born in September. The doctors told me I would probably not get PG again without intervention, I was nursing and I had not gotten my period yet, so I didn't figure that I would find out I was pregnant before Hannah was 4 months old. Oops!
Denae