There will be a large representation of 80's hair and heavy rock bands. It will be interesting to watch DS choreograph a samba when he has KISS, Aerosmith, Pink Floyd etc to choose from.
Normal, all completely normal! The grief will come in waves and will be triggered by all sorts of unexpected memories both happy and sad. You will find yourself laughing and crying in quick succession. At those times when you’re feeling OK, go with it - don’t second-guess why the pain isn’t more acute, or question if you loved him enough if you don’t cry today. But at the same time don’t assume you’ve “moved passed it”.Harder day yesterday. I guess reality is sinking in or delayed response...something like that. I took DS to the studio and then had some time to kill after so we went out for dinner. He made a comment about us having a dinner date and that started it. It just hit me hard that I'll never have another dinner date with DH. Then he was scrolling through his phone looking for a picture of he and his girlfriend to get printed and framed for her birthday and showed me one of DH that he'd taken recently but before he got sick. Mess.
Also, taking on his chores and tasks. Everything reminds me of him. Today I had to start calling around to pool companies. He always handled the pool opening and closing. And the chemical maintenance too. Aside from the year he and I tried to open it together and he ended up jumping in the pool to try to push the winter cover out after unsuccessfully trying to pull it off (along with the duck disaster that had been on top of the winter cover no matter how many times he chased them away), he used services but I remember him saying his guy had retired last year. Right now, it's a little overwhelming.
I'm sorry it was a tough day. As for the pool, that is a perfect job for someone who wants to help to do for you. Have them find and schedule the servicing and the company can invoice you. Don't stress out on these things right now please....it's just not worth it.Harder day yesterday. I guess reality is sinking in or delayed response...something like that. I took DS to the studio and then had some time to kill after so we went out for dinner. He made a comment about us having a dinner date and that started it. It just hit me hard that I'll never have another dinner date with DH. Then he was scrolling through his phone looking for a picture of he and his girlfriend to get printed and framed for her birthday and showed me one of DH that he'd taken recently but before he got sick. Mess.
Also, taking on his chores and tasks. Everything reminds me of him. Today I had to start calling around to pool companies. He always handled the pool opening and closing. And the chemical maintenance too. Aside from the year he and I tried to open it together and he ended up jumping in the pool to try to push the winter cover out after unsuccessfully trying to pull it off (along with the duck disaster that had been on top of the winter cover no matter how many times he chased them away), he used services but I remember him saying his guy had retired last year. Right now, it's a little overwhelming.