In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[Pixieshouse]

OMG so much has happened today!

Love the shoes - weight loss looks good on you

Dan don't go

and much much more

I am down 10 ounces. I will take that, finally off the weight I couldn't get of off.

I went to the ENT today and picked up another medication to help with the vertigo. I am taking a stronger diuretic now to see if that will make an difference. If it doesn't I am off to an inner ear specialist.

 

[BrcsDisneyPrncs]

DWD--AOL Instant Messenger.

It is free...go download it and get a screen name and come play with us! Post your name here when you are all set up and I will invite you in. Me Kat and Liz chat waaaaay too often!

http://dashboard.aim.com/aim

Now...run along...go...get a chat name!

I didn't realize that a bunch of you were on AIM? I'm usually signed on (with an away message up 90% of the time). My screen name: WickedGoddess37 - I KNOW I KNOW, i haven't changed it since 9th grade, seriously, i need to.....

So if any of you are ever on, give me a holler!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Ok, so Kat and SG/Liz are totally evil for keeping me up till 2:30 chatting! And they are both still sleeping. Remember what they say about payback, girls.... I am thinking that I will get everyone up at 6am when we are at SSR to go for a run! Yeah, that should do it.

Kat, love the shirt! I was in Banana Republic tonight and took a picture of a shirt for you! I'll have to email it to you. I know, I'm insane.


Totally insane! But we love you for it!


I hate folding, too. HATE it. It's so annoying.

I don't fold! In fact, I am not "allowed" to touch the laundry. There are some benefits to his OCD.


I went out to dinner and shopping with Ms Jealous aka Greenie. I bought a cute top, a present for a friend, and tried on jeans that fit. Size 14! And Greenie told me I looked small! Will wonders never cease?

Greenie and I are taking a spin class Sunday. I'll let you know if I can still have marital relations after it's over.

Watch those pink parts. I'm just sayin.... Awesome news about your skinny jeans!

Hey, I went to Kohls today for the same reason! I had exactly ONE short sleeved shirt in my closet that fit! So I got 10 new ones for only $97. Most of them are 1X. Last time I shopped I was getting 3X.


WOO HOO! Congrats! Gotta love progress! Good for you! By the way, you MUST have before and after pics, right??? Please post! You are such an inspiration!

I am going to try to do some catching up here this weekend. There's so much I just don't KNOW on here, that alot of the posts just don't make much sense to me. So if I don't respond, it's becuase I'm basically clueless. (Which is my usual state of mind lately....)

Yeah, we move pretty quickly around here. Except DWD...she has yet to get on that elliptical! (Go ahead and throw it already! I already have bruises....)

for some reason I feel like exercising.

And again I say...

Get. The F. OUT!

Woo Hoo! Liz is joining us on the dark side! Ok, we want details! I mean, this is better than a s*x story! How long did you go for? How many cals.? What level?

Ok...I am even scaring myself....

She asks, "Do you want to see the capri pants." I defered. I'm trying to hide my @$k, not plaster it with a paisly masterpiece!

Yes, there is alot of history here. You'll catch on soon enough. [/COLOR][/B]

See, this is how I feel about patterned pants. Um...do you know what that print is gonna do to my a$$!?!?! No thanks.

I went to the ENT today and picked up another medication to help with the vertigo. I am taking a stronger diuretic now to see if that will make an difference. If it doesn't I am off to an inner ear specialist.

Glad you are getting it worked out! Gosh, I can't imagine having vertigo! Hope it goes well.

I didn't realize that a bunch of you were on AIM? I'm usually signed on (with an away message up 90% of the time). My screen name: WickedGoddess37 - I KNOW I KNOW, i haven't changed it since 9th grade, seriously, i need to.....

So if any of you are ever on, give me a holler!

Got it! And I love that goddess is in your screen name! And with WickedGoddess....sounds like you are a Mainer!

As for me....I am now getting ready to go for my run. Yes, that is right. I was kept awake till 2:30 in the freakin' morning and I am now going for a run. Got guilt yet, you two?

And then I will be spending the rest of the day in my garden beds...getting the landscaping in shape for the season. Ugh! It is a love/hate thing. I like getting the house looking nice for spring and I love it when my flowers start coming up....but I hate cleaning out the beds from all of the winter crap and debris.

I'll check back later!

 

[Dizneydawn]

HI,
Treyner lost his game yesterday 1 -0 and the shot that won the game was a top right corner shot that the wind took like a rocket....so a good goal..he was screwed and could have done no better...I was glad it wasn't a shot that he bobbled or should have had...

2 of our players knocked heads in the last minute of the game going up for a header...and one got a huge bump..caused by the mouth of another...in fact the other boy..knocked his whole front tooth out...root and all... That meant...finding it...Treyner was back where it happened and was looking for a small tooth...not a golf tee as he put it... The poor kid was in so much pain as they shoved it back in...I could hear him scream from accross the field...an ER Dentist trip to get bonded last night...and we shall see who we have left today to play...

The team they lost to was ranked #2 in the country so not too bad of a start and this was our first time touching grass after playing indoors all winter...

I will upload some pics for you guys tonight...we are in a beautiful area..more mansions than you can imagine....

I miss you all....I look forward to December soo much...I can't wait to give you all a big hug for the support and kindness you have shown through this past couple days...

And...am I to gather that when you are all chatting it is on AIM???
Carsyn will have to get me in the loop so I can be a part of your fun...

Can we get booted from AIM like we can here for "OFF TOPIC CONVO'S???"

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I didn't realize that a bunch of you were on AIM? I'm usually signed on (with an away message up 90% of the time). My screen name: WickedGoddess37 - I KNOW I KNOW, i haven't changed it since 9th grade, seriously, i need to.....

So if any of you are ever on, give me a holler!

Better just keep that name, you Goddess. I signed up last night, and after 20 tries, found a name that wasn't already taken.

And again I say...

Get. The F. OUT!

Woo Hoo! Liz is joining us on the dark side! Ok, we want details! I mean, this is better than a s*x story! How long did you go for? How many cals.? What level?

Ok...I am even scaring myself....

Yes, I swiftly squashed that feeling. Hope it comes round the bend today.

Glad you are getting it worked out! Gosh, I can't imagine having vertigo! Hope it goes well.

Agreed

Got it! And I love that goddess is in your screen name! And with WickedGoddess....sounds like you are a Mainer!

As for me....I am now getting ready to go for my run. Yes, that is right. I was kept awake till 2:30 in the freakin' morning and I am now going for a run. Got guilt yet, you two?

And then I will be spending the rest of the day in my garden beds...getting the landscaping in shape for the season. Ugh! It is a love/hate thing. I like getting the house looking nice for spring and I love it when my flowers start coming up....but I hate cleaning out the beds from all of the winter crap and debris.

I'll check back later!

I don't garden. Don't even notice the weeds. My MIL does and she pulls them. She OCD thata way.

NO folding! He's a keeper.

HI,
Treyner lost his game yesterday 1 -0 and the shot that won the game was a top right corner shot that the wind took like a rocket....so a good goal..he was screwed and could have done no better...I was glad it wasn't a shot that he bobbled or should have had...

2 of our players knocked heads in the last minute of the game going up for a header...and one got a huge bump..caused by the mouth of another...in fact the other boy..knocked his whole front tooth out...root and all... That meant...finding it...Treyner was back where it happened and was looking for a small tooth...not a golf tee as he put it... The poor kid was in so much pain as they shoved it back in...I could hear him scream from accross the field...an ER Dentist trip to get bonded last night...and we shall see who we have left today to play...

The team they lost to was ranked #2 in the country so not too bad of a start and this was our first time touching grass after playing indoors all winter...

I will upload some pics for you guys tonight...we are in a beautiful area..more mansions than you can imagine....

I miss you all....I look forward to December soo much...I can't wait to give you all a big hug for the support and kindness you have shown through this past couple days...

And...am I to gather that when you are all chatting it is on AIM???
Carsyn will have to get me in the loop so I can be a part of your fun...

Can we get booted from AIM like we can here for "OFF TOPIC CONVO'S???"

Dawn, sounds dramatic. 1-0, that was a well matched game. Hope Treynor wasn't too upset. Having a relaxed time away from GT?

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Dawn - no chance of getting booted for off topic...please, my whole life is off topic convos!

Liz, oooo which VB are you buying?

I so love how VB is taking over! Kim, I caught your edit! VB in the house!

Wendy, oh owner of lots of VB...did I say hi yet? HI! I am near you - RB - home of the fireworks and a really good VB carrying store. I'm happy that you have so much VB, it's totally addictive, no?

*Yawn* just waking up after my late night chatting.... Sorry Erika! Had to do it. Needless to say, I skipped the class at the gym today. But I think 5 days of gym is good, no? Six and I might not have time for shopping.

You all need to get on AIM - we had the best time last night. Oh, and we totally all need to be on when the Miss Universe pageant happens! (That's in a month. Yes, I know these things.) Otherwise we will be playing Spot the Fakies all alone!

To Kat and Erika for last night....now the rest of you, get your screen names!

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood...I might think about weeding. Or I might just laze around. Yup, laze around sounds good! Oh, and Em's soccer! I meant to tell you all, I was totally the cool mom yesterday! And I made a friend!

I like this woman from Em's preschool. We have done two social things - St Patrick's Day and she had us over a few weeks ago. Both girls are in this soccer. She talked about hanging out there but last week was sort of unprepared - no chair, etc. So I was kvetching about this to Greenie, how I don't want the work of mom friends, and she was like "Mary is nice, she's just unprepared. You have to be the prepared one and she will appreciate it." I KNOW! Advice from Greenie. Maybe an alien took her over? Anyway, I listened. I called Mary and told her I was bringing my double chair - with armrests and cup holders, we tailgate in style here in the Garden State - and snacks. The night before I had gone to Target and bought a cooler tote - a lined tote bag, looks like a tote, works like a cooler. So i lugged the chair out and I brought the tote filled with waters and 2 Diet Cokes and some snacks for us and the kids. She just loved it! I was like the hero mom! I put my iPhone in the front, my small notebook like Erika told me, and some sunscreen for my face - Emily was already sublocked - and that was it! Prepared but not too much stuff!

See, I can learn! And I was friendly. Aren't you proud?

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Okay, I did an Erika. I read back on the thread. Did you know I didn't used to post every five seconds??? I just LURKED!

So, calling our friends...

Heather please tell us how things are going! PM us if you have to, I feel like it's been a good week since you checked in!

And Jodi, where are you? Busy with the kids?

And further down the line....Susan, how is it going???

And our two friends who have been absent for a long while...milestogo and Debbie. Has anyone heard from them?

I know I am missing other body boarders, too!

 

[HockeyKat]

OMG so much has happened today!

Love the shoes - weight loss looks good on you

Dan don't go

and much much more

I am down 10 ounces. I will take that, finally off the weight I couldn't get of off.

I went to the ENT today and picked up another medication to help with the vertigo. I am taking a stronger diuretic now to see if that will make an difference. If it doesn't I am off to an inner ear specialist.

Hope that they find out what is causing this! My dad had some vertigo problems a while back.

Ok, so Kat and SG/Liz are totally evil for keeping me up till 2:30 chatting! And they are both still sleeping. Remember what they say about payback, girls.... I am thinking that I will get everyone up at 6am when we are at SSR to go for a run! Yeah, that should do it.

Hey, I bailed at 12:30!! Not my fault!

I wound up going to bed after Battlestar... just couldn't keep my eyes open anymore.

Dawn - no chance of getting booted for off topic...please, my whole life is off topic convos!

Liz, oooo which VB are you buying?

I so love how VB is taking over! Kim, I caught your edit! VB in the house!

Wendy, oh owner of lots of VB...did I say hi yet? HI! I am near you - RB - home of the fireworks and a really good VB carrying store. I'm happy that you have so much VB, it's totally addictive, no?

*Yawn* just waking up after my late night chatting.... Sorry Erika! Had to do it. Needless to say, I skipped the class at the gym today. But I think 5 days of gym is good, no? Six and I might not have time for shopping.

You all need to get on AIM - we had the best time last night. Oh, and we totally all need to be on when the Miss Universe pageant happens! (That's in a month. Yes, I know these things.) Otherwise we will be playing Spot the Fakies all alone!

To Kat and Erika for last night....now the rest of you, get your screen names!

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood...I might think about weeding. Or I might just laze around. Yup, laze around sounds good! Oh, and Em's soccer! I meant to tell you all, I was totally the cool mom yesterday! And I made a friend!

I like this woman from Em's preschool. We have done two social things - St Patrick's Day and she had us over a few weeks ago. Both girls are in this soccer. She talked about hanging out there but last week was sort of unprepared - no chair, etc. So I was kvetching about this to Greenie, how I don't want the work of mom friends, and she was like "Mary is nice, she's just unprepared. You have to be the prepared one and she will appreciate it." I KNOW! Advice from Greenie. Maybe an alien took her over? Anyway, I listened. I called Mary and told her I was bringing my double chair - with armrests and cup holders, we tailgate in style here in the Garden State - and snacks. The night before I had gone to Target and bought a cooler tote - a lined tote bag, looks like a tote, works like a cooler. So i lugged the chair out and I brought the tote filled with waters and 2 Diet Cokes and some snacks for us and the kids. She just loved it! I was like the hero mom! I put my iPhone in the front, my small notebook like Erika told me, and some sunscreen for my face - Emily was already sublocked - and that was it! Prepared but not too much stuff!

See, I can learn! And I was friendly. Aren't you proud?

Glad you made a friend!!!

I just got up too... but I get to spend my day on errands, whee. Laundry, hair dye (yeah, I waited too long, I know), wally world, gym, etc.



And... I was 170.2 this morning!! Why am I always a samer on Fridays? Only .3 lbs more and I am under 170!!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

And... I was 170.2 this morning!! Why am I always a samer on Fridays? Only .3 lbs more and I am under 170!!

Whoo-hoo!!!

 

[3DisneyKids]

HI,
Treyner lost his game yesterday 1 -0 and the shot that won the game was a top right corner shot that the wind took like a rocket....so a good goal..he
Can we get booted from AIM like we can here for "OFF TOPIC CONVO'S???"

ANYTHING goes on AIM!

Better just keep that name, you Goddess. I signed up last night, and after 20 tries, found a name that wasn't already taken.

We totally missed you! Hopefully you will get it worked out.

I don't garden. Don't even notice the weeds. My MIL does and she pulls them. She OCD thata way.

NO folding! He's a keeper.

Oh...this is not gardening. This is just cleaning up the landscaping...you know, the shrubs and beds in front of the house, etc. I kill green things.

*Yawn* just waking up after my late night chatting.... Sorry Erika! Had to do it. Needless to say, I skipped the class at the gym today. But I think 5 days of gym is good, no? Six and I might not have time for shopping.

WHAT!!! You slept in AND you skipped the gym?!?!? Careful...or you may just be stripped of your goddess status! Get ready to turn in those tiaras....


It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood...I might think about weeding. Or I might just laze around. Yup, laze around sounds good! Oh, and Em's soccer! I meant to tell you all, I was totally the cool mom yesterday! And I made a friend!

I like this woman from Em's preschool. We have done two social things - St Patrick's Day and she had us over a few weeks ago. Both girls are in this soccer. She talked about hanging out there but last week was sort of unprepared - no chair, etc. So I was kvetching about this to Greenie, how I don't want the work of mom friends, and she was like "Mary is nice, she's just unprepared. You have to be the prepared one and she will appreciate it." I KNOW! Advice from Greenie. Maybe an alien took her over? Anyway, I listened. I called Mary and told her I was bringing my double chair - with armrests and cup holders, we tailgate in style here in the Garden State - and snacks. The night before I had gone to Target and bought a cooler tote - a lined tote bag, looks like a tote, works like a cooler. So i lugged the chair out and I brought the tote filled with waters and 2 Diet Cokes and some snacks for us and the kids. She just loved it! I was like the hero mom! I put my iPhone in the front, my small notebook like Erika told me, and some sunscreen for my face - Emily was already sublocked - and that was it! Prepared but not too much stuff!

See, I can learn! And I was friendly. Aren't you proud?

Same here...just gorgeous, so I am attacking the front of the house with a vengeance.

And look at you, soccer mom! I am so proud...one my little chickadees out on her own... And kudos on the cooler tote! I didn't even mention that!

And... I was 170.2 this morning!! Why am I always a samer on Fridays? Only .3 lbs more and I am under 170!!

WOW WOW WOW! 160s, here you come! At this rate, you may even be under 160 for the trip! (Ok, so I was going to put the dancing banana in here...but I can just never bring myself to use that particular smiley...it is just so phallic! )

 

[HockeyKat]

Thanks guys!!! Ooo... under 160. That is a ways away. I am okay with slow and steady progress. I am. Really, I am. (yes, this is me convincing myself).

It is cloudy here today, haven't been out yet to see what the temp is. Likely in the 70s at least.

 

[chbc]

checking in. Way to go boarders, I love watching the tickers to see the weight dropped. Kat you are so close, Wowza on your weight loss. Super happy Erika had a fun time shopping. I am so lame for not learning how to post pictures. Love the shoes Goof. Is our delight using her equipment? hugs to Sarah. Miss Pixie- I am close if you need any help. So sorry about the verigo, had a friend who tried everything out there. I am saying prayers for you. Happy thoughts for better times for Dan. I am going to try and make DD plans today. Sight are on WDW summer vacation. First time ever with AKL concierge. This was all arranged before the districts latest attack. but first, off to the treadmill and maybe the Y this afternoon. Thanks for having me check in Liz. I do PM to try and encourage, help and check in. to the body boarders

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Good to hear from you, Heather!

Question: why do old Navy clothes, specifically pants, fit like two sizes too small? I have on a pair of size 18 old navy low waisted capris that I must have bought 2 years ago in a fit of desperation. Now, in most clothes I am a 14 - not a solid 14, but a mostly 14. So why is this the first time these size 18's actually fit well? It is so strange!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Good to hear from you, Heather!

Question: why do old Navy clothes, specifically pants, fit like two sizes too small? I have on a pair of size 18 old navy low waisted capris that I must have bought 2 years ago in a fit of desperation. Now, in most clothes I am a 14 - not a solid 14, but a mostly 14. So why is this the first time these size 18's actually fit well? It is so strange!

Ok, I am the total opposite...I feel like my Old Navy 8s felt like other brand 10s....I always thought they Old Navy was the worst when it came to vanity sizing???? (which, of course, made me buy LOTS of Old Navy! )

With the pants you are trying on...it is because they are low rise...and remember, those go around your hips and thighs. Right now, my thighs are a different size than my waist...so what fits in the thighs and a$$ is swimmingly large on my waist.

 

[whgrn]

OMG, what a day! After running around all morning, we came home, had lunch, and went through her closet and drawers. 3 lawn and leaf bags later, all the stuff that doesn't fit or she doesn't like is gone. So off we go to the mall...

We went to Charlotte Russe, which usually has lots of great stuff. But mostly today they had hoochy koochy mama clothes. (Can someone please explain to me the purpose for wearing 3 tank tops??? ) We found exactly two things--both are turquoise short sleeved shirts, but slightly different shades. She needs a few of these, because so many of her shorts go with turquoise shirts! So, that was it for that store.

We went to Limited Too. OK, more hoochy koochy stuff--I saw an 8 year old (maybe 7?) dressed like a street walker, with her proud mama right behind her. What are these people thinking??? She found a couple things there--some shorts she liked (for $42.50 --thank God they were 30% off), and a top to match, and another pair of cute (and much cheaper) shorts.

So, um, we're pretty good for shorts, which we don't need yet, and we're set with turquoise shirts, but we still need ALOT. So off we go to Old Navy, the store with theco-ed fitting rooms! Yeah, like my 12 year old DD is EVER gonna undress in there. Another pair of shorts and a top to match, and we're out of there for $1.50 plus the gift card we went in to spend.

So, what am I to do? She hates EVERYTHING. And I can't really say I blame her--the clothes for juniors are either slutty or just plain UGLY! She would be much happier in jeans and a baggy T shirt, which I have told her is not acceptable for school, shopping, visiting Daddy, or anything else requiring her to look presentable. I am a Talbots classic kinda girl, so I have NO clue about this new style of "fashion". I think I need to find someone else to take her shopping...

So, that was my day. Can you say early bedtime for Mommy?!?

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi Everyone...

Sounds like most of us did the rounds for shopping today... I spent the morning with my sister car shopping (she shopped, I rode along). This one salesman we encountered was a joke. I really think he was someone they just pulled in off the street and asked him to stry and sell a car. Shabbily dressed and knew nothing about the car we were looking at. I think she took that car off her list just because...

The afternoon was my turn to shop since I still needed to find something to wear to my awards luncheon. I fianlly found a white linen blazer and navy blue linen pants. Now I just need to find shoes.... (yes, my weakness) and I should be set.

I ate out twice today which is not good for my diet at all. I am heading to the driving range tomorrow to get in some exercise along with a walk so hopefully that will offset the extra calories.

Hope everyone is having a great night.

Paula

 

[HockeyKat]

Good to hear from you, Heather!

Question: why do old Navy clothes, specifically pants, fit like two sizes too small? I have on a pair of size 18 old navy low waisted capris that I must have bought 2 years ago in a fit of desperation. Now, in most clothes I am a 14 - not a solid 14, but a mostly 14. So why is this the first time these size 18's actually fit well? It is so strange!

Ok, I am the total opposite...I feel like my Old Navy 8s felt like other brand 10s....I always thought they Old Navy was the worst when it came to vanity sizing???? (which, of course, made me buy LOTS of Old Navy! )

With the pants you are trying on...it is because they are low rise...and remember, those go around your hips and thighs. Right now, my thighs are a different size than my waist...so what fits in the thighs and a$$ is swimmingly large on my waist.

I felt like Old Navy was fairly accurate... 14s too big, 12s too small, which is right about where I am.

Funny... mine is always swimming in the thighs/rear, and tight around the waist.

I am choosing to drink my dinner tonight. 350 food calories, rest in lite beer.

 

[Dizneydawn]

Thanks!!! And you summed it up so well. The weight just creeps up... you think, one more hershey's kiss, beer, whatever, won't hurt me since I am already doing badly... and in the end, at least for me, I wound up at 220 lbs. My real wake-up call for the last go'round of weight loss, was shopping for WDW clothing for my Jan '07 trip and realizing that no way was I actually a 16 anymore. I walked into Lane Bryant, looked around, left, went back to my car, and cried. When we got back from the trip, I basically said I am NOT going to be this person anymore.

Kat..I am there....I am not going to be here anymore...just am sick of this weight and I am ready..I might even run...

Every individual needs to get to this point themselves. And it is HARD. It is so much easier to go with the flow, and use the food or alcohol to make us feel better, and if one chip or candy bar makes us feel better, then MAN, the whole bag will be that much better... and each time it takes more to feel better... I so, so understand.
why did I ever turn to food??? I wish I knew?
Honey, whenever you are ready, we will be there for you. And we will be there for you even if you are never ready. This isn't just for weight loss and motivation, this is also for friendship and unconditional support.
I am so privaleged to be amongst friends here...true friends..

As Kat said, the time just has to be right. I can't tell you what "flipped the switch" for me this time. (I suppose if I knew that, I would be a ga-jillionaire.) I just know that I feel like I wasted my 30s...not being in pictures with my kids when they were babies and toddlers because I hated how I looked. Not wanting to get dressed up and go out. Turning down really important career opportunities because it meant having to be on camera. All because of what? Wanting to eat stuff that was bad for me anyway? I am done with that...with feeling that way, with looking that way...and with letting it affect my behaviors.
I noticed myself hiding from team paents this weekend...they hav more money..more success..but much more healthy lives...mine is not right now and I am embarrassd about that..
I know some of us here are struggling with getting started and some are struggling to keep going. That is OK. We are here for whatever you need us for...friendship, support, encouragement, motivation, someone to biatch to and dump on...whatever. At some point, something will click for you....and then...watch the F out! Cause you will be on FIRE!

I need to really committo this...I need to feed myself love...not food...
[/QUOTE]

Aside from always feeling like the chub in the room, I get the added fun of inevtitably being under dressed when meeting people after work. Whether it is meeting friends or going to a meeting, I always feel like a schlub... My personal horror is going to a committee meeting after work for the volunteer work only to walk in and find myself totally underdressed in comparison to the other ladies who are there.... The ladies who lunch crowd is perfectly coiffed, dressed and have all of their materials neatly laid out in front of them with coordinating Vera Bradley accessories and then there is me. I walk in with muddy shoes, hard hat hair, sweaty brow and am lucky if I have my materials in a file as opposed to having them all in a pile with a binder clip. On a good day, I may even have a shot at putting on lipstick before I walk in the door, but it is not likely. I have serious issues with the fact that I don't look feminine at all when I am dressed for work. I walk around the NYS Capitol all day and have people looking down on me because of the way I dress and because of my size.... If they only knew what I am capable of despite my appearance they would be shocked....

I say we take 'em on.... I'm sure we can all run circles around them...

I have my big dinner tonight with the cool shoes.... I'll even find a work photo so you can see the transformation...

Talk to you later,
Paula

You deserve respect from others and yourself...

Okay, this is my take on the perfectly put-together types... I guess some part of me is envious, well, at least of the put together part. But most of me is really almost proud to be an individual. I have learned to embrace the parts of me that make me ME. I am not a SAHM mom type. I am a geek, I love hockey but hate sports in general, I don't like or want kids, I swear profusely, I only wash my hair twice a week, I don't have the perfect husband, body, hair, life, wardrobe or job. I cook haphazardly, crafts/sewing? what's that, baking is something I have heard about but have never tried, I only wear black shoes (with one exception my husband made me buy), I don't carry a purse, and I only get my hair cut twice a year. I am so not a typical "girl", that I think that most "ballet moms" would shudder at the very thought of my existence!!

But, I still consider myself successful, and honestly, *** anyone who cares.

I need to care about me like that...make me happy and say F everyone else...

So, I've been trying like crazy to read and get all caught up here, before I posted. I was thinking there were like 100 or so pages. OK, I could manage, eventually. But now I see that there are 184?!?! NO WAY am I gonna get caught up anytime soon.

So, here I am, following Dawn over from the BL4 thread. From everything I've read so far, y'all are awesome!!

Just some background on me: single mom, divorced 8 years, 2 kids (DD 12.5, DS11). DD is in special ed--Verrrrrrrrrrrry slow. DS has ADHD, ODD, and some emotional issues. We call him the terrorist (hey, it fits...) I had gastric bypass 7 years ago and lost 250#, then found 50 of those all over again in the past few years. So I decided to get the A$$ in gear and lose those 50, plus the last 26 that I never got around to losing. So, here I am, I've lost 40 of those 50, and have just 36 to go to get to my goal.

If you want lots of detail, you can read my blog--the link is in my siggie. In the meantime, I really am looking forward to getting to know you all!!

Sooo glad you are here....

Dawn, sounds dramatic. 1-0, that was a well matched game. Hope Treynor wasn't too upset. Having a relaxed time away from GT?[/QUOTE]

Thanks..read all..could not reply to everything..but I am so excited to get back to a rountine this week....miss you all...think of you each ...as special gifts I never expected...

BTW...Treyner beat a team from England today...6-1....

 

[goofyfan-12]

I need to really committo this...I need to feed myself love...not food...

You deserve respect from others and yourself...[/QUOTE]

Dawn - this is something I am trying to work on. It is hard to turn off 36 years of feelings and change them to something more positive. I love this board since I can share those types of feelings knowing that there are folks out there who will remind me to think more of myself when I am down.

Thanks buddy...



Thanks..read all..could not reply to everything..but I am so excited to get back to a rountine this week....miss you all...think of you each ...as special gifts I never expected...

BTW...Treyner beat a team from England today...6-1....[/QUOTE]

Go Treyner.... we are proud of our boy...

 

[3DisneyKids]

Would love to comment to everyone, but this is a quick check-in and then off to church.

Gooff - I really just think of you as absolutely amazing! You totally hold your own in a man's world, you are charting your own future with your work and going after what you deserve, and when you stray from your program you find your way back. You are attacking your weight issues head on...including the emotional stuff in the background. I have so much respect for you (and I have high standards!)

DAWN - Glad to hear that you are finding your motivation again! It stinks when you feel that you have to hide yourself and your life. That just doesn't feel good, so let's change it! What can we do to help? You mentioned running, so I am going to one again post the link for the Couch to 5k program. Honestly, running has been so empowering for me. Above all else, that is what is making me feel good about myself. I mean, I went from not being able to run for even half a mile to running 6 miles in just three months! Talk about a sense of accomplishment. And when the skinny moms (and by this I don't just mean thin women...I basically mean the ones that make you feel as though you are "less than" for one reason or another...like what Dawn was describing in her post)...so when I see the skinny moms I can just think to myself, "I just ran 5 miles...what the hell did YOU do??? Heck, I am training for a MARATHON...can your little skinny butt run one? I don't think so!" (Ok, maybe this is nasty and snotty, but it is only in my head! ) But this is what I mean about running giving me such an esteem boost! I feel so powerful because of it.

And if running is not the right thing...think about cycling. It is the time of year that we want to be outside. Or even power walking.

http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml

You can also join the thread here on the Wish boards which is for those starting C25k. No need to go back and read the whole thread....just jump in wherever. I found it a really helpful thread when I was starting out (though I recently stopped posting there as I need to move on).

Anyway, let me know what we can do...what would be helpful? Posting your food? Posting your exercise? Having someone to train with?

SG/Liz-- I just had a fantastic idea (if I do say so myself! ). When I am in NYC in June visiting my brother, we have to go shopping! I clearly have so much to learn! Seriously, dinner and drinks will be on me in exchange for your services as my personal shopper!

DWD/Liz--How's the elliptical coming? C'mon....you know want to!

Kat--Holy CRAP it is SUNDAY!!!! I am DYING! I don't care what time you get in, you MUST post something tonight about your work meeting. I hope everything goes as it should...relax...you are a total knock-out and I am sure that you will wow your colleagues with your brilliance and beauty!

I know I haven't gotten to everyone yet....not ignoring you! Just gotta give time to the Big Creator upstairs (Did I ever mention that my dad--who is a minister--often preaches as God as "she" just to keep things in perspective? How cool is that?)

Have a great day...I will be offline most of the day, but will damn sure be checking in tonight!