MyMelody
Mouseketeer
- Joined
- May 25, 2008
The title is to explain a bit about me, I want you all to know me. I am a 33 year old mother of 2 beautiful angels my children are my life! I am not married nor engaged to my children's father but I come on here to read and see beautiful love stories. At the age of 16, I was engaged with a old childhood/family friend he was at the time 25 we cared about each other very much and he treated me like a princess. We both got married when I turned 17 and not even a year into our marriage he was diagnosed with Hodgkin's disease (cancer) and we went through so much in the years to follow. Our husband and wife relationship turned into more of a nurse/patient relationship our Love became brother/sister I was there for him unconditionally through better or worse, in sickness and in health, right? I loved him dearly he was so special to me no matter what. On valentines day of the year he died we had a special night. We could not go out cause he was so sick so we had a block buster and dinner night. He chose the movie (Love Story) I had no idea what the movie was about but boy did I cry that day.. When the movie was over after my eyes were soo puffy that I barely could keep them open. he then asked me that if he passed away all he wanted was for me to promise him that I would find the most perfect person that can give me all the happiness that I deserved for taking such great care of him. I walked out of the living room and asked him to please stop talking like that. I walked away without ever promising anything and the conversation there was over. It was 8 months later sitting beside him on his death bead in a hospital for 1 whole week he was covered in tubes without being able to talk and I was sitting there just reading to him and in my mind thinking everything and anything. I became a widow at 22 my long time friend was taken from me and I suffered dearly all I did was sleep and cry for months. I decided that I needed to get out and have a good time I was 22 I had done all I could do for him while he was alive I started going out with friends and meeting people but no one I met was worth anything so I just became a party girl. I meet this one guy over the Internet and we talk for years over the net. I really liked him cause he was so sweet. We started having phone calls and then one day 3 years later I go visit him in NY. I went to see my friends who live there and we happen to make a date to finally meet in person it was really nice out meeting. We talked and talked and talked never wanted to say bye but we did and it was over. The day after I left NY he called and asked me if I could go back that he would pay for it. I was like ummmm NO but a few months later I pay ed to visit my bf and spent a few days with him they were great. I came back home and he called me again and said can you take some time off I said um yes and he said I'll call you back. He calls me back and he had booked a one way ticket for me to spend some time with him and I did I spent 13 great days in NY before I leave NY we make plans to see each other again in a month this time we both were going to meet in Orlando. I was so excited we booked everything for our trip and when I get back home 2 weeks later that I was not feeling very well. I go to the doctor and he says to me the magic words (You are going to be a mommy) I nearly passes out. After that moment I was so confused that all I did was CRY, CRY and CRY. I did not know if I was happy all I could do was cry... I was so confused I sat and wondered if I had done my late husband wrong. I felt so bad. So after a week of holding it to myself and realizing that in 2 weeks I had to meet this guy in Orlando, I break the news to my family. They all nearly flipped. Then I call him and decide I needed to tell him, I talked and talked but could not say it till finally before we hung up the phone I got courage and said hey I am going to be a mom and he was like WHAT?!? I was like I am pregnant and he said do you want me to go see you? I said No I will see you in Orlando cause we need to talk about it and he said I will take care of you and the baby there is nothing to talk about I said we'll see and hung up. He called me everyday cause I was really sick (morning sickness) some times I could not talk to him. Finally the day comes to fly to Orlando and I was sick and nervous but the moment we see each other it felt so different. I felt like everything was different, I saw him different, I knew I had a baby in me "it was weird", I had never felt so different. well, the trip was nice except that I was sooooo sick and Disney was Disney beautiful and a lot of things were said good and bad then the moment to go home happened and it was so weird. I told him I could not be with him. he cried, I cried and goodbye was said. I got home and he called and I asked him to please give me a few days to think. I could not take my late husband out of my mind. I got sicker with my pregnancy I ended up in the hospital with dehydration, urinary track infection, I was a mess. Finally I was discharged and we maybe spoke on the phone once a week for months. During my 5th month he asked me if I would mind going to NY for a shower he wanted to throw me. I was hesitant but my mom told me not to be mean, so I said "YES" and go to NY. When he see's me again for the first time he could not believe it. I was HUGE and looked very different all he did at the airport was hug me and hold my stomach and all I could do is say 'I don't feel good". Baby shower happens and I go back home and he then asks me if he can come to the birth of his (SON) I was like okay I'll call you. When they plan my baby shower in Miami my mother tells me to invite him so I all and ask him if he would like to come and he says (OF COURSE) and I was like okay see you then. He comes 2 days before the shower meets my whole entire family for the first time (he must have felt so weird) and while he is here he asks me if he can stay till the birth of our son cause he wanted to see the doctor and just make sure he doesn't miss it and I say (yes you can stay) thank god cause 2 weeks later our son "Tristin" is born. Everything changed and as of that second. He then asked me that if I could let him stay here. That if he can live with me. I was so confused but I kept looking at my son and saying to myself I can not think stupid so I give him an ultimatum you can stay only if you let me stay home and raise our son till he is 2 and he says OK... Yay for me! I don't get serious with him cause in my mind I don't want to love someone and for tragedy to happen but I can not think that way everyone says. My baby turns one we all celebrate that wonderful milestone and then little to my luck my father get's sick in May and then we get the news and the word I hate he has (cancer) I wanted to kill myself and 2 months later he goes into the hospital cause he gets sick and I had my son so little I could not go all the time but that is when everything in my life changed. My sons father takes control he goes to the hospital, he prays for my dad, I find out he goes in the morning before work to the hospital to see him and one night I leave my son with my sister's mother in law and when I arrive in ICU that I walk into the room there is no one in there but my dad and him massaging my dads legs cause they were purple and he felt bad to see him that way my heart stopped for a second and that minute I fell finally in LOVE I was like WOW he loves me... I went and hugged him and said that is so sweet of you and he answered "he made me feel like a son in the little time I known him" I then hugged him again. The very next day we get the news that my dad is not going to make it. I was crushed! My dad then passes away and everyone in my family is so impressed by him. He was all I needed to get through this hard time I was going through and my son just completed it! So here we are 10 years later 2 kids later and we are still together. So I come on here to hear everyone's beautiful love stories and hoping that maybe one day I can marry the man of my life, the man of my dreams, the father of my children, my best friend, my love! Everyone on here is an inspiration to me so if I cant do it, I can look and have ideas and dreams of your amazing weddings.
Someone posted earlier a post making me sound like a stalker and it made me feel uncomfortable and I am just here like everyone else to read and see amazing stories and pictures.
If I never have my Disney wedding at least I can say I saw a whole lot of beautiful brides and read a lot of amazing stories! I am the one person that does not take marriage as a joke nor life as a joke both are amazing things to have. I love to love and love to be loved! I wish every single Bride on here happiness and most of all health for her and her Groom cause when you are happy you are also healthy and when you are loved it feels so good... My children are my life and their dad just completes it!
Someone posted earlier a post making me sound like a stalker and it made me feel uncomfortable and I am just here like everyone else to read and see amazing stories and pictures.
If I never have my Disney wedding at least I can say I saw a whole lot of beautiful brides and read a lot of amazing stories! I am the one person that does not take marriage as a joke nor life as a joke both are amazing things to have. I love to love and love to be loved! I wish every single Bride on here happiness and most of all health for her and her Groom cause when you are happy you are also healthy and when you are loved it feels so good... My children are my life and their dad just completes it!