Hi folks
I did a CRP and ever since I find myself fighting with depression. The year at Disney has been the absolutely best I have ever had. And even with the most optimistic forcast of my future I don't ever see myself having such a good life again.
Some of you now might wonder how I could have had such a good time while having to share a room and earning 10$ an hour. And let me tell you, everywhere else I would have hated it. But at Disney it was special. I love Disney and I love theme parks. There is literally nothing else in life that fills me with so much joy. While many fellow CM's had enough after a year I just wanted more and more of it all.
I experienced so many incredible things. Fancy dinners, party's, etc. The first time in my life I found friends that truly are real friends. I've met the love of my life, whit whom I spent so many romantical days in the parks and all over the US. And I could go on for hours. And my job; I loved my work as well. Every day waking up felt like I was in heaven.
Now I'm back home on the other side of our spaceship earth... Still have to spend years on finishing a degree, while barely scraping by. My love of my live is now my Ex, because she lives on another continent. I am just bored all the time and nothing is exciting. And like every second day I cry because I miss Disney so much.
The biggest problem is that I'm constantly toying with the idea of just abandoning everything just to do another CRP. But that would be an incredible stupid idea. Financially, in regards of my degree and because after that year I would just feel awful again. But I still can't get rid of my wish of repeating the CRP.
I just had to get this off my chest. I would have never imagined I would grow so attached to Disney when I started my program. Yet here I am. However, being born in the wrong country, a career with WDW is nothing but a pipe dream for me.
btw. it's been 4 months now since I left Orlando, my personal heaven on earth, as I call it ;(
I did a CRP and ever since I find myself fighting with depression. The year at Disney has been the absolutely best I have ever had. And even with the most optimistic forcast of my future I don't ever see myself having such a good life again.
Some of you now might wonder how I could have had such a good time while having to share a room and earning 10$ an hour. And let me tell you, everywhere else I would have hated it. But at Disney it was special. I love Disney and I love theme parks. There is literally nothing else in life that fills me with so much joy. While many fellow CM's had enough after a year I just wanted more and more of it all.
I experienced so many incredible things. Fancy dinners, party's, etc. The first time in my life I found friends that truly are real friends. I've met the love of my life, whit whom I spent so many romantical days in the parks and all over the US. And I could go on for hours. And my job; I loved my work as well. Every day waking up felt like I was in heaven.
Now I'm back home on the other side of our spaceship earth... Still have to spend years on finishing a degree, while barely scraping by. My love of my live is now my Ex, because she lives on another continent. I am just bored all the time and nothing is exciting. And like every second day I cry because I miss Disney so much.
The biggest problem is that I'm constantly toying with the idea of just abandoning everything just to do another CRP. But that would be an incredible stupid idea. Financially, in regards of my degree and because after that year I would just feel awful again. But I still can't get rid of my wish of repeating the CRP.
I just had to get this off my chest. I would have never imagined I would grow so attached to Disney when I started my program. Yet here I am. However, being born in the wrong country, a career with WDW is nothing but a pipe dream for me.
btw. it's been 4 months now since I left Orlando, my personal heaven on earth, as I call it ;(