Alicia, honey, you are not supposed to be coping. It is too big of a loss and shock to cope, right now. Just feel what you want and need to feel and do not let anyone else tell you what is appropriate or not.
I have had losses and you never get over them. It does get easier and the happy memories start to outweigh the sad. Everyone has their own time table and way of dealing.
It sounds as if the scrapbook idea is right up your alley and will give the whole family something that they can work on together. Maybe later on you could post a few pages so that we could get to know Levi a bit better.
I am so sorry to hear that you and Matt are still having so many physical problems. I would get a new eye doctor. If you are not comfortable with him he will not do. Want me to come down and knock him around a bit for you?
How is your daughter doing?
I have a prayer board next to my desk and you and yours are on it and will remain there as long as need be.
If you want to talk on the phone just PM me and I will send you my phone number. I have unlimited calling so I can call you w/o charge if you really want to unload. I also am a night owl and am available when wiser heads sleep.
Much love and best wishes, Slightly Goofy/Linda