I never said you can't do an RP again. When I asked if I thought you were able to run a thread, I said "yeah". You're a good RPer, Silv. The only two problems you really have is feeling panicked when you miss a few pages and needing to be in control of every detail.
And honestly, unless it's about your character, you miss a class or it leads to the beginning of a friendship, relationship, or archenemy-ship, the chatter, the talk, doesn't really matter. If they're just having a conversation, it's just a conversation. It's white noise. You should learn to care less about the white noise and focus on the changes. Instead of asking "did anything happen while I was gone", ask "did any changes or major events happen while I was gone?"
Look, I get that Nessie didn't ask if you were okay with it before doing a plot change, that can suck if it really doesn't go well. Yet, if it's the one I think you're talking about, the Balthazar takes over camp one, we ended up having a lot of fun with that. It was a challenge. Other people like to be involved in the decision-making of what happens, and I find that consulting them leads to a happy cast. Plus you get a lot of cool ideas and perspectives you never thought of before. For example, recently we've been trying to figure out how to jumpstart plot on the camp, so I thought up a plan using a villain. But when there were holes in that plan, I started thinking up a new plan, and the new villain cosen actually works a whole lot better for the plan because he actually did what we wanted to do.
Fine, I'll do the Dis-Dream too, but only if you'll sign up for it. If you decide not to, you're still welcome at Collins.