Lost my daughter to suicide

mommasita

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Thanks everyone. Today is the day, and I’m just not coping well. I can’t stop thinking my daughter should be here mourning her Nonno . Nothing is right here, nothing will ever be.
 
  • macraven

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    I know you are hurting

    All the posters here wish you peace

    Sending you love and prayers


    Some days will be harder than others and hope the times it is hard to cope,will become fewer
     
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    lanejudy

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    You have been through so much more than anyone should ever have to bear in such a short time! My heart breaks for you. I am continuing to keep you and your family in my prayers.
    :hug:
     

    Domo

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    my daughter chose to end her life by hanging in our home, my husband and son (21) found her. She was my baby, and only 18. It's only been one month

    her ex bf had done the same two weeks earlier , and his sister blamed her, as she had a new bf.

    We are really broken and trying to survive . Last year I lost both my mom and stepdad in 5 days, but this is something no parent should face. I wish for nobody to have this pain.
    Please keep us in whatever you do, thoughts and/or prayers
    Oh my God, I am so sorry... I can't even begin to imagine...
     
  • lisaviolet

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    Thinking of you all the time mommasita. Can hardly type to you without tears. Love sent to you all.
     
  • bluejasmine

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    I lost a son to an over dose Sept 30 2016, its not exactly the same thing but I always wonder if he did it purposely bc he was a very unhappy person from a very young age. I know as a parent its hard not to question yourself and everything that you did, but remember that you cannot control anyone and even if you could have done something to stop her, there is a big chance she may have tried again, I had a friend whose son tried multiple times before succeeding and his mother prevented several of those time.

    I hope your finding some peace, no youll never be the same, I am not, I never will be but youll heal some enough to not think about it every hour on the hour.

    Your welcome to message me anytime, I wont have any answers for you but I do know what your going through.

    My mother is actually in hospice right now, so Im going to loose my mother soon too..

    Sending hugs, pixie dust and prayers
     

    mommasita

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    Thank you to everyone. I lost my father March 3. I spoke to him the night before, and he was coming over. Super healthy man, literally dropped dead. He hasn’t slept well since, and I think he worried for me, and thought he may lose me.

    So, my Briana would be turning 19 on April 19th. I have booked a trip with my husband to Punta Cana. I won’t forget this day, any day, but I can not be in this house all day alone. I can not face it. I am running away

    My son is doing ok, he is working, doesn’t want to talk about it, that worries me more, but we all deal in our own way I’m told. My husband doesn’t want to either, at least not with me. It’s trying times, and our household is broken.

    I have great friends, but there is always an elephant in the room, so social settings are off the table for me.
     

    AnnaFloridaLover

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    Thank you to everyone. I lost my father March 3. I spoke to him the night before, and he was coming over. Super healthy man, literally dropped dead. He hasn’t slept well since, and I think he worried for me, and thought he may lose me.

    So, my Briana would be turning 19 on April 19th. I have booked a trip with my husband to Punta Cana. I won’t forget this day, any day, but I can not be in this house all day alone. I can not face it. I am running away

    My son is doing ok, he is working, doesn’t want to talk about it, that worries me more, but we all deal in our own way I’m told. My husband doesn’t want to either, at least not with me. It’s trying times, and our household is broken.

    I have great friends, but there is always an elephant in the room, so social settings are off the table for me.
    I'm so sorry. I hope somehow you and your family can find peace. Grief has it's own timeline. Hugs.
     

    marcyleecorgan

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    *many hugs* Our family lost its youngest adult to suicide a few years ago. You are not alone in this pain. *have a Duffy Bear to cry on*
     

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    Or clouds the stars from her eyes
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    A hope against my soul-ripped heart
    My strength when I have none

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    The day has no meaning
    But the sun still rises
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    Unfair to whisper grace
    When grace I cannot feel

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    And yet still responds with stars
    Even though my star is gone

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    Grace I do not know
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