Kathryn Merteuil
Barden Bella
- Joined
- May 11, 2012
I honestly cannot talk to my friends or family about this due to sheer embarrassment, but If I don't vent somehow or I feel like I will explode. I just don't even feel like making up a new username or say it's a "friend's" situation. It's just me and I am having a hard time.
My husband confessed to me that he has traded "inappropriate" pictures with some woman. Somebody we know happened to actually see this on his phone and told him he should fess up. At least that is what he told me. He also shared her name, says she is an old friend. It is a name I have seen before. I've seen it pop up on his phone a couple times. Once we were in the car and a call came in with that name on the caller ID, and I've never seen anybody scramble so fast to get something off the display. I kind of dismissed it and just thought I was being paranoid. I didn't want to be psycho jealous and make an issue out of it. I always just figured we are old enough, if he wanted somebody else they would already be together and we would have never been a couple to begin with. Of course after this, I have looked her up on Facebook and her profile says "single" and she is younger than me and I should refrain from taking cheap shots at her appearance. He says he is sorry and wants me to forgive him. My initial reaction was just lets get past this, but I just don't know if I can. Honestly, I am soooooo sick of hearing him apologize. He has been blowing up my text all morning apologizing and saying how bad he feels.
I feel soooooo inadequate. I consider myself to be attractive, but I can't compete with somebody younger that looks like her. Why would I even want to try to compete? What did I do to make him seek out this kind of attention? Is the exchange of pictures all that's happened, or have things gone further and that is all he admitted to? Has he done this before? Will he do it again? Why am I even responding to his constant string of texts trying to comfort him? For some crazy reason, I am afraid if I ask him the "serious questions" I will lose him. Why am I afraid of losing him? I don't need somebody who would do something like this. Why do I feel so guilty about this? I was such a fool for trusting him. I also feel so ashamed. I know my dad said early on in this that he was not a big fan of this guy. He never really made an issue out of it other than him expressing concerns upfront. I don't want him to find out about this so I don't feel like I can talk to him about this. I wish I had my mother, I could possibly talk to her, she would have been the only one I could ever talk to about this and not fear getting a horrible lecture about how my stupid behavior foolishly marrying somebody that I thought was my perfect soulmate.
Am I blowing this all out of proportion? Or is this a time to do some serious consideration about my future? Thanks for letting me vent.
My husband confessed to me that he has traded "inappropriate" pictures with some woman. Somebody we know happened to actually see this on his phone and told him he should fess up. At least that is what he told me. He also shared her name, says she is an old friend. It is a name I have seen before. I've seen it pop up on his phone a couple times. Once we were in the car and a call came in with that name on the caller ID, and I've never seen anybody scramble so fast to get something off the display. I kind of dismissed it and just thought I was being paranoid. I didn't want to be psycho jealous and make an issue out of it. I always just figured we are old enough, if he wanted somebody else they would already be together and we would have never been a couple to begin with. Of course after this, I have looked her up on Facebook and her profile says "single" and she is younger than me and I should refrain from taking cheap shots at her appearance. He says he is sorry and wants me to forgive him. My initial reaction was just lets get past this, but I just don't know if I can. Honestly, I am soooooo sick of hearing him apologize. He has been blowing up my text all morning apologizing and saying how bad he feels.
I feel soooooo inadequate. I consider myself to be attractive, but I can't compete with somebody younger that looks like her. Why would I even want to try to compete? What did I do to make him seek out this kind of attention? Is the exchange of pictures all that's happened, or have things gone further and that is all he admitted to? Has he done this before? Will he do it again? Why am I even responding to his constant string of texts trying to comfort him? For some crazy reason, I am afraid if I ask him the "serious questions" I will lose him. Why am I afraid of losing him? I don't need somebody who would do something like this. Why do I feel so guilty about this? I was such a fool for trusting him. I also feel so ashamed. I know my dad said early on in this that he was not a big fan of this guy. He never really made an issue out of it other than him expressing concerns upfront. I don't want him to find out about this so I don't feel like I can talk to him about this. I wish I had my mother, I could possibly talk to her, she would have been the only one I could ever talk to about this and not fear getting a horrible lecture about how my stupid behavior foolishly marrying somebody that I thought was my perfect soulmate.
Am I blowing this all out of proportion? Or is this a time to do some serious consideration about my future? Thanks for letting me vent.